21

Yesterday was my 21st birthday. My best friend and roommate (same person is case you were confused)planned a surprise birthday dinner for me, we went and got a few drinks and I spent the last couple of days with her and her cousin whom is also a dear friend. I had a good birthday and I'm so touched that I was thought of enough to have her plan a celebration for me.

But while I was driving aimlessly on the freeway last night I began to feel overwhelmed and even scared of what this birthday means. On one hand I no longer have to play the "I forgot my id" game when purchasing alcohol, on the other hand I am about to graduate from college. In a matter of months I will be considered full grown and it is not all it's cracked up to be.

I am not my mama's baby anymore, heck this time in my mother's life she was getting married! I breakout into hives at the mention of commitment. I'm quite confused about what to do or how to go forward. I mean I will be putting in my law school applications very soon, and I will continue this blog because I do indeed enjoy it. I fully intend on incorporating both of these passions (blogging, environmental law) into my life for ummm ever if I can.

I suppose I am not so scared for my future  in the "I'm going to be a bum" way because as cocky as this may sound I know I'm going to be successful in one way or another. Success is what I do, it's what I've always done despite the major setbacks that I've had this year. Though in the very near future I could be moving out of my mother's house, dealing with issues like relationships, sex, marriage etc. I mean basically my life is about to turn into an episode of Girlfriends.

Hell, I can't even think of a good way to end this post, so I'm thinking it's all down hill from here. See how backwards and confused I am? Good day.